Chapter 1

Sitting here makes me nervous. Well this isn't my first time here. So I shouldn't be nervous but I am.  I don't want to be here. I shouldn't be here by myself. He should be here with me. I didn't create this myself. It takes two. Not 1. But what happened was a mistake.  At least that's what he says. I don't believe it was a mistake. But it was he's about to be married. 

"Onika Maraj?" The nurse asked waking from the back. I got up and walked to where she was standing. 

"Right this way." She said leading me to a room in the back. "The doctor will be here soon." She said walking out the room and closing the door. 

I sat in the chair nervously biting my nails until the doctor came in.  

"Nicki, how are you feeling today?"

"I'm good Dr. Tully. How are you?" 

"I'm good actually thanks for asking. Lets get down to business. How are the babies?"

"They're doing good. I'm just worried. I've been really sick lately. All I can do is sleep. I eat and throw up. I'm just weak all the time." 

"Honestly Nicki, that's totally normal. Every mother goes through that. All I can recommend is more sleeping and only eating what you an keep down. All that acid from the bile isn't good for your teeth."

"Thanks that makes me feel much better."

"You welcome. Lets get a look at these babies. Get up on the table and lift your shirt up for me." I did as he instructed. She spread the gel on my stomach and I shivered at he cool sensation. 

"Sorry Nicki, I should have warned you."

I giggled. "It's okay. Just caught me off guard."

"Well, Nicki everything looks good. Baby D's heart beat is a little irregular. But with close attention everything should be alright. Baby A,B,and C look fine." I was a little nervous about baby D, but I she thinks he's going to be okay. Then I'm okay. 

"Thanks Dr. Tully. That's really reassuring." I said with a warm smile. 

"Well Nicki, everything looks good. So on your way out make a appointment with Jenny at the front and she'll also get you the ultrasound pictures from today. Any questions?"

"No not at all Dr. Tully. See you next time."

"Bye Nicki." She said holding the door open so I could walk out. 

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Sitting in my car looking at the ultrasound I couldn't help the tears that poured down my face. How was I going to raise these babies on my own. My eyes travels down to my wrists. Hell I was barely taking care of myself. I got some things to think about. I cleaned my face and started the car so I could leave.   
Pulling up to the house I saw Cai outside playing with ChuChi (My Dog).  Getting out the car Cai ran towards me. 

"Hey Nika!" He said running towards me. 

"Hey Cai, where's everybody?" 

"SB left. He got a call from Rex I think. And mommy's in the kitchen coking something." He said shrugging and going back to playing with ChuChi. I walked in to the house, going straight to the kitchen. 

"Hey Ma."

"Hey Onika. Where were you this morning?"

"I was at the doctor."

"OH MY, Nika are you okay? What's going on? Is something wrong?" 

"Ma, CALM DOWN! I'm fine jut an annual check up." Partial Lie. 

"I'm just checking your my only girl. I have to keep tabs."

"HAHA! Ma, I understand. I'll be back. I said running up the stairs to my room. I took the pictures out of my purse and put them in the drawer next to my bed. Walking into the bathroom I heard my phone ringing. Thinking it was SB I answered without looking to see who it was. 

"Hello"

"Get to the studio"

"I'm busy actually"

"Be here in 5 or it's your ass." And with that he hung up. Guess I need to get there.