Chapter 5

I was home alone. BORED out of my mind. Cai and my mom went back home and SB went to Rex's to ride bikes. I need to find some business. A knock on the door dragged me out of my thoughts. Getting up to open the door I didn't bother asking who it was or looking through the peephole. I immediately regretted that seeing who was about to walk into my house. I tried slamming the door before he could walk in, but he stuck half his body in the door. 

"Onika, you can't close the door." He said laughing at my failing attempts. I don't want this ASSHOLE in my house. 

"What do you want?"

"Are you going to let me in? Or am I going to have to stand halfway in your house while we talk?"

"I don't want to talk to you. So if you would just leave we wouldn't have this problem."

"Nicki I'm not leaving. We need to talk about what happened."

"No we don't. You said how you feel and I agreed."

"Onika, open the door" he said growing irritated. So I'm irritating you? You ain't seen nothing yet. 

"No. Leave."

"Open the door."

"You got 5 seconds until I call the cops. Now how will that look?"

"Onika open the GOTTDAMN door."

"Yelling wont get you in my house."

"Open the door." He said calming slightly. 

"Nope. So if you would kindly get of my stoop. I'd like to close my door." He muttered something quietly before shoving his way into my house. I stumbled backwards. 

"What the FUCK? GET OUT OF MY HOUSE!"

"Can you stop yelling? I just want to talk to you."

"We'll I don't want to talk to you." I said heading up the stairs to my room. " if you'd let yourself out, I'd greatly appreciate it." I said fully turning my head so he didn't see the tears slowly flowing down my face. 

I heard footsteps and the door close. Figuring he was gone I went into my room and laid on my bed with my face in my pillow. Hearing my door open I looked up to see him closing and locking it. I quickly wiped my face. 

"I thought you left?"

"Nicki please talk to me."

"I don't want to. Can you please leave?" He just looked at me. I turned over on my side staring at the blank screen on my wall. I felt my bed shift. I turned my head to see him laying there with his nothin but his boxers on. He grabbed me by the waist turning my body so I was facing him. 

"I love you."

"No you don't. Don't lie to me." He shook his head."Can you please leave?" 

"No." I rolled my eyes shrugging his arms from my waist. Luckily I had on a hoodie. My stomach wasn't big. But I looked like I was bloated. Felt like it was too. I was pulled from my thoughts by him slowly kissing my neck. I wanted so badly for him to keep going. But this was wrong. I tried pushing him off of me but to no avail did he move. 

"You should really leave." I said trying to sound convincing. I couldn't concentrate on what was wrong and what was right at this moment. He bit the sensitive flesh underneath my ear. I shuddered at the feeling he was giving me. He needs to leave. This is how we got in this mess in the first place. 

"You need to leave. You have a fiancé." I said trying to sound convincing. But failed miserably. His hands traveled to the edge of my hoodie pulling it over my head. He stared at me. I felt ashamed. I couldn't help the tears that flowed down my face. 

"God, your so beautiful. I should have never let you go." But you did. I wanted to chase after me. That's all I wanted. I knew if you fought you really loved me. But you didn't fight. You left me. But I couldn't say that. 

"I think it's time for you to go." I said sitting up to grab my hoodie. He grabbed my wrist  making me wince and retract it from his grasp. He pulled my wrist towards him looking down at it. 

"Nicki, what the hell is this?" He said angrily. 

"Let go of me." I said pulling my arm away from him. His grip got tighter the hard I pulled. 

"Nick, look at me." 

"Please." I begged feeling ashamed. It didn't help the tears that cascaded down my face. 

"Nicki......Onika.....Look at me." He grabbed my chin and pulled my face towards his so that I was looking at him. 

"What?" I asked not really wanting to know the answer. 

"I still love you. I want you to have my kids one day." Too late that one day is about 5 months away." I want to marry you. I'll leave Dhea for you. She doesn't matter to me like you do."
I was crying. I couldn't help it. I don't want him to see my cry. I don't want to see my scars. Pushing him off of me I walked into my bathroom locking the door behind me. 

"Nicki!" He yelled my name banging on the door. 

"What do you want?"

"You."

"Why won't you just leave me alone?"

"Nicki, just come out here and let me talk to you. Please. You don't have to talk or listen. I just want you to hear what I have to say." I unlocked the door and walked out. He stood there with a pained expression. FUCK his pained expression. I've had one sine I found out I was pregnant. I have a pained expression every time I walk into the doctors office with our him. I have a pained expression when ever I crave cookies 'nd creme ice cream in the middle of the night with no one to go get it. I have a pained expression whenever I throw up in the morning from morning sickness. I had a pained expression when the doctor told me my baby had an irregular heart beat. I had a pained a pained expression when I was sitting on that floor crying my eyes out and damn near bleeding to death when I first knew I was pregnant.  I have a pained expression whenever I have to see him. Especially when he's with Dhea. So excuse me if his pained expression doesn't mean shit to me. Feeling myself grow irritated, confused, and angry I far him an annoyed look. 

"Nicki, I didn't mean to hurt you-"

"But you did." I said angry he was repeating himself. I bent over to pick up his stuff to give to him. "It's time for you to go."

"I'm not leaving. So stop trying to get me to leave." He grabbed me and layer me on my bed. He pulled off my leggings. 

"Stop." I said trying to pull myself from his grasp. He grabbed my by the waist and pulled me to his body so that we were touching. There was total vagina to penis action going in here. Pulling my hoodie back off he kissed down my stomach leading to the top of my vag. He pulled down my underwear slowly, while looking me in my eyes. He moved back up to my face kissing my lips. Then kissing the name of my neck while moving to my breasts. I moan somehow escaped my lips. I was embarrassed. I could feel him smiling against my skin. He continued down to my other set of lips. He blew on them making me shiver. He was teasing.  And I didn't like it. 

"Stop Tea-" He cut me off by sticking his tongue inside of me. He looked up at me smiling devilishly. 

"You like that?" He asked feeling accomplished. I couldn't reply. The feeling was to overwhelming. I don't know whether it was having some sex, having sex with him, or maybe me being pregnant. But feels like the BEST. SEX. EVER. 

"Answer me."he said demanding me. I jumped feeling him teeth on my pearl. Did this NIGGGA just bite me. I was to busy contemplating about this NIGGGA biting me I didn't notice him sitting up and placing his friend at my entrance. I tensed seeing his friend. I ain't gone lie. I run from dick. And right now I was running. He smirked then grabbed my legs and pulled me back to my original spot. He leaned over me kissing my face as he pushed himself into me. I winced at the feeling. The pain was gradually getting worse. I felt like a virgin again. He kissed my lips repeatedly. My face was flowing with tears.

"I love you Nicki." He said steadily pumping out of me. He started fucking me harder and harder. 

"Baby, I can't take it." I begged trying to scoot away from him. He pulled my back to him by my hips and fucked me with no mercy. 

"Baby. I'm about to-" I couldn't finish my sentence. 

"What you about to do?" He said stroking me deeply. I just took it. I couldn't speak. My mind was too gone. "Answer me Nicki!" He demanded. 

"YESSSS! I'm about to come!! I can't take it anymore." I said as tears flowed down my face. 

"Not yet. Flip over." He demanded and I followed. I was on my hands and knees and he rammed into from the back. I felt my knees buckle. I can't take this. 

"Baby, your hurting me so good." I said moaning as he hit it from the back. 

"Onika I love you." I moaned in response unable to speak. 

"What's my name?" He asked gripping my waist and slamming into me. My arms gave out. I collapsed on to the bed. Ass all in air. 

"Onika." Slam. "What." Slam "Is." Slam. "My." Slam. "Name?" Slam. I couldn't reply. I was at a lost for words. I can't take this. My legs hurt. And I can feel him in my stomach. 

"Don't make me ask again." He said in a threatening tone. As if daring my not to say anything. But I couldn't the words were stuck. 

"You know what..." I heard him mutter. He let go of me. I immediately got out of his grasp. Scooting as far away from his as I could pulling my knees to my chest. He walked into my bathroom and I heard the shower cut on. He came back into the room and stood at the edge of my bed. 

"Get up." He demanded looking annoyed. I shook my head feeling like a little kid. 

"Get up Onika." 

"No. I'll take my shower after you."

"I want to take a shower with you. Get your ass up and come shower."

"No. I'm okay. I want to take a bath anyway." He shook his head as he came over to where I was sitting. He grabbed my leg pulling it towards him. His grip was tight on my leg. 

"Okay baby, I'll get in with you." I said giving in to him. He smiled as he followed me into the bathroom. I could feel him staring at my ass but I wasn't about to say shit. I knew what was about to go down in to shower. I stepped in and he stepped in behind me. I actually started to wash my body. He grabbed my luffa from me. He turned me around so I was acing him. He put his finger under my chin so I was looking at him. He kissed me. What was supposed to be simple turned into a major make-out session. He wrapped my legs around him and turned so the water was going down his back and my back was against the tiled wall. He pushed himself back into me. I suppressed a moan that was threatening to come out. At first he was sensual. He was careful. Then he asked me a question. Him and these damn questions. 

"Nicki, you love me?" YES! I do. "I know you here me talking to you." Oh I did. Just wasn't about to answer. He fucked me showing no mercy. I was crying tears of pain and joy. I felt like I was about to explode. 

"Nicki this is my last time asking you." He said looking at me as if daring me not to say anything. 

"What's my name?"

With each word he stroked deeper and harder. God, I couldn't hold it in anymore. 

"Wayne. FUCK! DeWayne Carter. GOD BABY I LOVE YOU! Please baby, I'm about to come." That all came out as a moan. He smirked. 

"You gone come with me?" He said looking me in my eyes. 

"GOD YES!!" I came first. I felt myself squirting.  I sighed in relief. He came shortly after. I felt him in my. I felt his liquid sliding down my leg. He let my legs go. I trie standing but my knees buckled. He laughed holding me up. 

"Ain't shit funny" I said giving him a glare. 

"My bad Nicki." He washed my body then washed his. We both smelled like Pink Chifton from bath and body works. I stepped out of the shower and wrapped a towel around me. He wrapped a towel around his waist walking behind me. I walked to my drawer and grabbed my underwear and pajamas. He went to the drawer he had in my house and grabbed a pair of boxers and some sweats. Sad to say, yeah he has a drawer at my house. Can you tell he comes by often? That this happens often? I stripped the sheets and put a new one on before grabbing a blanket from the closet. I climbed in the bed trying to erase what just happened. I felt the bed shift. Telling me that he had got in the bed with me. He got under the cover pulling me by the waist towards him so we were touching. I looked him in his eyes. He looked at me. 

"I love you Nika."

"I love you to Wayne."